First I'm sad to hear of Steve Job's passing, but this has nothing to do with it. So on to what I have to say (cuz that's why we are all here. I think this blog is making me a bit egocentric). Life has been tricky lately as I continue to search for a fulltime job, or at least a job that I can start paying on some student loans soon. As the time approaches when I'll have to start paying on them, the more stressful it gets, and the more trusting in God in starting to get harder. But then God sent me a little message about this all.
As I was driving to Columbus for a funeral I was flipping through radio stations. It turns out the my presets from NE Ohio don't work in central Ohio... shocking I know. (Side note, the funeral was for a man I never met but father of a friend. His name was Rich and after hearing about his life I truly can't wait to meet that man in heaven. Inspire man who's life was taken to soon but I know God will use.) As I scanned to the right for the 20th time in the last few minutes (music ADD) I heard a preacher. Typically I'm not prone to listening to radio preachers but I was intrigued for whatever reason. I stopped to listen. He was talking about Job. He said one thing that went directly to my heart and then my head(the usual route things take for me) and I started to think about it. During the entire time Job was being basically tortured by Satan, God never spoke to him. Job pleaded and begged at times and had no idea, yet God was silent, and Job was faithful. Talk about a challenge from God. Here I am whining because I've been praying for the last few months about a job and not heard anything (ironic that Job and job are spelled the same huh) and Job was devastated. EVERYTHING he had was taken from him. Including his family and health, yet he was faithful to God through it all, even though he heard nothing. Maybe I need to rethink my frustration towards God!
So here's the plan... to trust God. To trust Him if I lose my job and go bankrupt, to trust God if I get some disease, to trust God if I lose my friends and family, to trust God if I'm laying on my death bed feeling I'm to young to die. While these seem maybe a bit extreme, I've realized that as much as I may fear the unknown, I don't need to. I simply need to trust. As much as I have no idea what the next month or week holds, much less the next few years, I don't need to. Yeah I want a job and I want to move to Columbus and I want to do the things that I think will make my life happy, I must trust that the plan God has for me are so far beyond what I could ever imagine. I am confident that when I look back at this post years from now that I will chuckle a bit. I will think to myself, man if you only knew back then what I know now. But I can't get there unless I trust God and just give it to Him and let it go. Regardless of what may happen the rest of my life, I know the end and I know the final outcome. What amazing joy to know that we need not worry about our futures because we have a God who loves us so much and knows exactly the things we need.
Well it is time for this long winded writer to be done. As always I'd love to hear from you if you have anything to say. I encourage you to comment on here or email me at optimisticprime15@gmail.com. With much love and prayer,
OptimisticPrime
